Rant about MySpace

Deleted this rant because it was embarassing, soz. MySpace is shit.

Oh, also these are the kind of people that still take it seriously...



Dream. Boat.

Calm down

Ok, So I'm back in Sheffield and it wasn't as bad or traumatic as I thought it was going to be - of course! Yesterday, I really didn't want to leave my home at all, I nearly cried over breakfast but I told myself to stop being such a wimp and I got in the car and I went back to uni.

It was really nice seeing everyone that I havn't seen for a month or so and that cheered me up a bit and I suppose having my own private space is nice too. Spent last night panic revising for my exam today.
Getting there was horrible; we had to leave at 8am to get to Sheffield Wednesday Football ground - who knows why it was there. It was dark and pouring it down with rain and I just wanted to cry. The exam went ok... spent only half the time I should have in there but everyone left early, it was a really short exam. Fingers crossed that I've passed.

The downside of being back at uni is once again a lack of food. I cannot motivate myself to leave the flat and walk to tescos - I wish I had someone to go with but all my flatmates already have all theirs.

Trying to look more at the positives in life; we have potentially found a house for next year which is considerably cheaper than this one and on wednesday I'm going back home :D

First Post - Where's my head at?

I'm at a weird stage in my life. I got to university - the thing that I have been aiming for since practically the womb and now I'm there and it's not what I expected at all.
Right now I'm totally uninspired. I do all the things a good 18 year old should do. I have two jobs and I'm paying my own way through University. I'm at a good uni on a good course but now it seems like everything that I've strived for; that I've worked so hard to achieve is just not what I want.
Asking myself what I do want becomes difficult as well - ideally, I would like to sit around all day doing exactly what I want and become rich from it. However, I am grounded and I realise that this can never be a reality. I know that this outlook is typically teenage and lazy. So, reassesment? What do I want? The answer to this is - I don't know.

Recently, I have become unsure of myself in more ways than this. I can no longer make decisions. I no longer know what I want to do with my life; where I want to end up; who I want to go there with; what I want for breakfast. Over the past week or so I have been questioning things a lot. It's having physical effects on me too. I am unable to sleep; I have ulcers and I have headaches which seem to be a permanent fixture in my life. Consequently, I have been in a very bad mood for a while now this mind frame is causing me to become paranoid, bitchy and insecure which fuels the worrying which in turn fuels the physical pain and it becomes a vicious cycle which I have really no idea how to get out of.

Answers on a postcard please.